Seasonology #26: dream

roller boots and the on/off dreaming switch

Today’s card is an invitation to let your mind wander.

I have a crystal clear memory of this moment when I was in my early teens. I’m on my roller boots; my second pair, burgundy with yellow and blue stripes. I preferred the first pair, blue with stripes I can’t remember, but well, feet grow at that age and the choice for a size 4 was burgundy.

I’m playing out on our estate, a safe place for bike-riding and roller-skating, with friends, maybe my younger brother too. And I have this feeling that I really will be quite something one day. Those are the exact words that play in my memory.

It wasn’t cockiness, or arrogance. It was just a knowing that I would make a difference, the start of a dream, the dizzying and slightly scary potential ahead.

What happened next was the sobering effect of school, being funnelled into reality through sensible channels. Being limited and caged by “options” as I approached GCSE’s and then A-levels, restricted further to go to university. Nothing quite seemed to fit this dream I’d had… perhaps that kind of dream was for ‘other people’… maybe I was here to live an ordinary life after all, and settle for ‘ok’ jobs that didn’t light me up.

I’d switched off the dreaming. The world of imagination that’s reserved entirely for children, the one that adults gently smile at whilst rolling their eyes. I’d walked away from that world.

Things started to shift when I reached 30 (my first Saturn return) and I began following nudges towards new hobbies, home renovations and a whole new business just for me. My Uranus opposition at 40 brought me even more clarity on the dreams that had been hidden, and freedom to chase them… now approaching 50 the switch is fully back in dreaming mode as I aim to catch up on the switched off years!

Oh, I wish I could go back and drop things like vision boards and human design into my life back in the 80’s… what a difference that would have made! Well, maybe I can in some way… here’s what I’ve started to tell my 13 year old self…

💫 dreams are not silly or pointless, they’re important clues to what’s next for you, keep hold of them tight - write them down or make them into pictures to make them more real every day

💫 your body knows what’s right for you, you’re designed to listen to that internal tug moving you forward or pulling you away, it will keep you on track

💫 you’re here to break the old rules and find new better ways for us all to live ~ don’t let anyone stop you doing that

… and I think she’s starting to listen too ✨

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